Day 1: Welcome

I live in a world inside my brain.

The contradictions I can come up with would entertain some. Others might think medicating would be a good idea.

Probably due to being a middle child I believe I shouldn’t speak unless I’m going to say something worthwhile. Because if I were to say something important and it was actually listened to, and it was dumb, what are the chances that the next time I have something to say, it would be listened to?

As a business owner I’ve also bought into that thought because there’s a fine line between visibility and showing up, and wasting peoples time. Plus, how many times can you share something with a twist while hoping it finally lands. There’s got to be a finite number.

Discipline is the key to life. Not the master key but one of the more important ones.

Over the past year to 18 months I’ve been in the process of eliminating. Gluten, sugar, alcohol, certain people, crazy amounts of screen time, clutter in my house, blocks around money and resentment.

I’ve also been adding. I officially became business partners with my podcast co-host when we formed an LLC. We started a secret society for solopreneurs.

And now, I want to add in writing. Daily. Ugh. I know I can be consistent. Especially with writing because I love it so. I just also know that regardless of how logical I can be: there is some serious vulnerability in putting yourself out there and getting crickets or comments. Ha!

With the world turning more AI and perfect, I want to show up with Actual Intelligence. And maybe it’s not intelligent to write free flow with no assist from a bot. But being authentic and true to who I am, is what has got me to where I am today.

Am I still a work in progress? Yep.

There are many things I’d like to polish up. I have a specific image of myself and take actions towards that vision but I’m also learning to accept the current version of myself.

Back to where I am today:

I’m happy, fulfilled, and have great boundaries though I sometimes slip with those.

Writing has been my passion. It’s saved me more than once. And putting it out there publicly provides me so much joy thinking it could connect the dots for someone else. Or at least, make them feel less isolated or alone.

That’s ultimately what I want. People to feel safe and secure in their skin. Lovers of solitude, not fearful of isolation. Able to tap into their divine gifts and share them with the world. We weren’t meant to thrive for accolades and awe from others. We’re meant to make an impact on the lives of others.

At least, that’s what the world inside my head shows me.

Less masks, more magic.