Day 66: It’s Not Even Busy Season Yet

Here we are. Day 66 at 9:42 pm. The amount of times today that I wished I had the energy and time to write was about 5. Instead of doing it earlier, I thought: let me lay down and rest a bit. This was after being at the Airbnb’s for a few hours doing stuff, going to Costco and shopping for Thanksgiving gifts.

Last night we had my husband's certification happy hour. It wasn’t a late night but it was a work thing so it was draining.

Tonight we had the kids end of baseball season party. I had to bring 2 platters of brownies and 2 platters of Mac n cheese. Getting my brain wrapped around the logistics of heating all of that up was overwhelming.

People who don’t have ADHD, or love someone with ADHD, have no way of comprehending the amount of stress that happens when trying to do something new that the outcome isnt certain.

I knew how to bake the brownies perfectly. I found the perfect mix (Duncan Hines) that complimented my dishware material and size (glass and 9 x 13). I know that the recommended temperature is correct and that I need to bake for 30 minutes (3 extra because of glass) to make the brownies moist and gooey but not too gooey.

The Mac and cheese was a last minute thing I volunteered to bake. My sister in law said at last nights celebration she was going to make it because there wasn’t enough food for the RSVPs of people coming.

Since I was going to Costco I told her I’d pick up two trays. She adamantly tried to decline. I said, “You working tomorrow?”. Which she said, “Yes” even though she knew I knew.

I said, “dude, i’m already going, let me do this.”

Her, “it’s so expensive though. I can make Mac n cheese for $6” (which…now that I’m typing it out there’s like no way…unless she’s got some black market cheese dealer that I don’t know about).

I told her it would be easy for me and my pleasure. Honestly, we buy Panera Mac n cheese regularly and it’s over $30 to feed 2 people. I know the Costco trays are way bigger.

The mac and cheese said to bake for 40 - 60 minutes. Because I’ve tried baking multiple things together at the same time and it getting weird I asked my neighbor for help. She said, ‘It’ll be fine, just back it for 50 minutes together". I believed her. I shouldn’t have.

I had to bake it for about 70 - 80 minutes (it’s all a blur) which made us about 20 minutes late.

Not a big deal but not ideal.

I always feel like such an asshole when I can’t get simple things right.

The loop in my head is, “How fucking hard is it Marcia? It’s not like you made this all from scratch. You literally just had to put it in the oven. And you still can’t get that right.” My brain can be such a jerk.

Anyways, the Mac and cheese was a HUGE hit (seriously, consider Costco mac and cheese in the future. it was $15 for a platter that could easily feed a family of 6) and both platters were gone in no time. When we left there were still brownies. So the thing that came easy wasn’t the most liked. Oh the irony.

But, who cares? Not me! I’m just happy that the third night in a row of activities is over.

Tomorrow I have lunch with Carin and our biz bestie Kim. Then Sunday is a trip with my sister to see our sister. That will be about 9 hours round trip.

Then I can decompress until it’s time to leave for Thanksgiving.

I’m trying to stay appreciative and grateful for all the love and opportunities in my life but this much activity in such a short amount of time is doing a number on me. 3 down, 2 to go.

I am grateful. I do love my people and the opportunity to spend time with them. I will remember to be grateful and to rest when I can. And maybe blog earlier in the day so it doesn’t hang over my head the whole day. That was annoying.