Day 83: Where’s the Easy Button?

Earlier today I was like, “Holy shit, I’m a quarter of the way to the goal!” of blogging for 365 days straight. I just divided 365 by 4 and may have mathed wrong. Ha!

I popped half a sudafed earlier today and got so much work done around the house. Organizing, rearranging artwork, finally putting up the Christmas tree which also entailed furniture being rearranged. It’s been a while since I’ve taken Sudafed and considered taking the whole pill. If I had, the boys would have had to resuscitate me. Not seriously but man does it jack me up.

Anywho, tomorrow I’m sharing about the podcast launch team on Instagram. Today I invited folks to our Q1 workshop on Friday which is housed at a website link with our new pod name. I guess my plan is to just pretend like it’s been announced. Not sure why I can help clients with communicating a name change but for us it’s so disjointed. That’s probably subconscious fear around doing something Carin will dislike. Which is absurd because that’s not how she is, and I typically don’t underperfom. Yay, launch mental drama!

The process to record the story this morning was very difficult. I recorded around 8 attempts. Finally I remembered I could use a green screen. The green screen was a screen recording of our sales page and the confirmation email with the pre-work information. For some reason that feels safer. To have something running in the background and then my talking head.

Physically I was feeling pretty warn down because we had so many activities over the weekend. Plus I found out on Friday I have Hashimoto’s which is an autoimmune something or other. The NP recommended cutting gluten AND dairy. As a primarily processed food eating vegetarian, this is going to be a difficult shift. At least I’ve grown accustom to being gluten free but also eliminating dairy is going to be a challenge. There will need to be so much more effort and intentionality that has to go into my diet.

God willing I’ll start feeling better though. For the past year I’ve been blaming perimenopause and it’s been my thyroid attacking me. Probably should have started with a blood panel but with my cycle so out of wack I just assumed it was my reproductive organs.

Processing all of the lifestyle changes I need to make while feeling like shit isn’t ideal because it feels very overwhelming. I’m trying not to catastrophize which will lead to a spiral and paralysis but I’m bummed about the timing and the idea of living such a disciplined lifestyle makes me want to run away. Hahaha…not really, because wherever I go my body will be there so no point in running.

Maybe it will be the final puzzle piece to my total fulfillment. Obvs I’ll keep you posted.