Day 174: Business Finances
Wrote a post and the battery died so I lost it. Second time this has happened. Who’s putting how much on when it will happen for the third time?
My car key battery has been saying “low change battery soon” since summer. My low printer ink has been on popping up since a couple weeks ago. Is it scarcity, stubbornness, environmental, the dopamine trip?
Don’t worry about not reading what I wrote when the laptop died. It wasn’t good.
Not sure I got good in me right now with so many different things pulling my attention.
Tomorrow I hand over the tax docs to my mother-in-law. That will be a big relief. I didn’t bring in much revenue last year. And consistently paid myself, with only paying quarterly taxes once… The amount I paid was a lot but not enough. I have a pretty decent balance in my bank account but it’s in God’s hands now.
Earlier today I had lunch with my former coach. She’s fixing to move soon. While packing up her stuff she told me she wished she hadn’t fallen for the bait of, “You can build a business and make it successful if you just try one more thing.”. She said if she had been able to be happy with what she had, she wouldn’t have wasted so much money and energy on striving.
I knew exactly what she was talking about though. Women are sold this bullshit lie that you can grit your way to massive business success by yourself if you just invest the right amount of time, money, and energy.
That corporate isn’t designed for working moms so go out on your own and create your own destiny. Get all the time freedom you want. While you build your soon to be multi-million dollar one-woman shop.
It’s fucked up.
One of the biggest aha moments I had in business was when I put the deposit down for the place that I hosted my first Connector Conference at. I was so terrified to put the remaining $500 needed that wasn’t in my checking on my credit card. Then I thought about all the guys out there bankrupting businesses, not paying employees, spending extravagantly and I did it.
That was brave and I’m glad I did it but I also do feel duped by all the “rah rah” shit that’s out there. “You’re just one course away from millions.”. Meh.
