Day 98: The Photos Have Been Taken

The 40/40 photoshoot went amazing! Way better than I expected. I think the book I’ve been reading, “Bending Reality: How to Make the Impossible Probable” really helped.

If you didn’t read day 95 or 96 I explained it more in that entry. The author talks about us being in 2 states. Either contraction or expansion. I’ve been catching myself in contraction quite a bit.

When I initially wrote about the book I’d only read it once. And I had a lot of questions. In my head. Like, am I doing this right? How do you feel? Thoroughly? Am I doing it right?

lol

Listening to it again has helped me understand the concepts better.

My ability to get so frustrated with not completely grasping concepts is entertaining. Or psycho. Probably both.

Anywho, each time I went into contraction (basically scared thoughts/anticipation) about the experience today I caught myself. And just felt it. I didn’t try to “think myself through it”. I did as the author says. I acknowledged the discomfort. And I admitted to myself that I was in contraction.

At one point, in the shower, I started to tell myself, “it’s ok Marsh, before you know it youre going to be home getting the house ready for a bunch of teenage boys to stay over.”. And then I stopped myself. “No! This is not expanding. This is contracting. I’m trying to transport myself into the future to avoid feeling the fear I have.”.

Bruh.

I am crushing this book’s concepts.

Not that I’m being graded but I will say that it helped me so much. Each time today that I started to get into my head, I thought “I’m contracting.” which then helped me get into flow, or expansion. It basically helped me to stay present.

The relationship I’ve built with the photographer so far was very helpful in not making the experience awkward. I still tried though. Just kidding. But I didn’t know the makeup artist at all and she was great with me. You kind of have to be really good with people to be in that line of work. I literally hate people touching me, especially my face. But she was great and I trusted that the photographer trusted her.

Getting glam done is something else. When I got a close up in the bathroom mirror it was a bit startling but the shots that the photographer showed Carin and me were beautiful. I’d had makeup done professionally one other time and have seen people with full make up done in person. It’s very exaggerated. As is posing for shots. You have to laugh. And look at each other. Thank God it was Carin and me.

I don’t know how strangers do it. Well, it obviously gets easier each time. And likely more so when you see the end result.

It was a wonderful experience and I can’t wait to see the pics!

Now… if there is an opportunity that you have been thinking about that you are too nervous to try, maybe give it a shot. What do you have to lose?